Tuesday, December 05, 2006

I'm holding back...

I feel that I'm holding back in this blog...and I guess deep down I know why. I started off thinking that I could be totally myself - reflecting on various subjects...perhaps using quotes I've found challenging...writing down my wandering thoughts... But more and more I feel that I edit what I type...maybe I shouldn't worry what people think of my blog...but I seem to. Maybe I find criticism difficult or when I am questioned about what I put on the screen. I don't want to justify what I write...I just want to write. Is it just me...am I being over sensitive (I know I can be!!). So maybe the challenge in this blog is to work through my 'writer's block' (or perhaps writer's blog!) and get back to being real to myself. MMMmmmm....I will return...I promise!

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

Mojo - it is frightening to release ourselves, even privately. To do the same in a public forum, to strangers, is even more so. Our hearts are all tender, and precious, and we have a need to protect them, so your feelings are normal. This is even more so if we have been hurt and stung in the past. (and most of us have).

I will say this though, you have a good heart, a loving heart - that shines clear in much that you have written and said. You make life richer for many, and I am sure that if you share deeper, others will benefit at they get to "know" you, (cyberly speaking)

Mojo said...

thanks so much for those words my friend...they do make sense to me. Yes, you are right - it is a little scarey to put your thoughts down for others to read. I know that your blog is filled with hopes and fears and I know how much I benefit from reading your daily reflections. Sometimes I feel misunderstood or down some days and I log on and read something you've written and it makes me smile for the rest of the day!
So your comments encourage me to keep going!

Thanks Tom...

Drive-Thru said...

Mojo- you blog is one of my favorites to read and it breathes into me inspiration to keep going. I say all this because I am about to very blunt: if people don't love you for who you are and meet you in the place you are at in your journey then as we say in the states fuck 'em you don't need them anyway. I know that this is easer said than done, but it is the truth. Keep writing and be true to how the Creator has created you. This is my blunt thought of the day.

Anonymous said...

Aah, there’s the difference between a locked personal diary and the blog, which is visible to the public. We are accountable for our words, and the Bible has much to say about that, but it would be our loss if you did not take risks and share with those who have gathered in your blogging community. I visit your blog because I think you’re wired for encouragement, and I believe the social exchange at this site is beneficial.

None of us is inerrant, so we must be subject to criticism, but we are all (to some extent) fragile, so the criticism should be kind. We must aspire to be like Jesus. He was full of truth AND grace. Please treat me like a brother, and if I ever cross the line, feel free to say, “Oh Craver, shut up.” I would much rather have that from you than withdrawal.

I appreciate you, Mojo. Bless God and be blessed.